When You Promised 

​My cousin emailed a 30 day writing challenge and I’m fasting from a few things that consume the bulk of my time/day so I said this would be a great time to get back into the swing of things with the blog. Especially since my schedule has finally slowed down and I have the time outside of work. So for the month of November I will be #BloggingLikeCrazy and going through #30Layers30Days so let’s jump right into it since I’m a fay behind LOL

WHEN YOU PROMISED

You said that I was in the inner circle.

You said that I had direct access whenever I needed it. If I was going through, your door was open to me.

You said…

You promised to lead and guide.

You promised to protect and build.

You promised…

I was nurtured and guided. I felt safe and found my path. Like the lost sheep I felt rescued by my Shepard and guided back to the herd. Then one day without any notice, reason or explanation I was alone or at least the rose tinted glasses made it seem that way. I was once again lost. I couldn’t hear you or see you. I couldn’t reach you, my words were falling onto deaf ears. I was lost in translation. My needs were thrown to the wayside. My cries for attention and help were muted to your ears. All of you and none of you deserted me at the same time. I was in a room full of people and a room overflowing with love and I felt alone and empty. I was doing everything I knew to do not to drown and nothing was working.

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